Whom, and What, Do I Forgive?
I wrote the following to a wounded person online, and felt like sharing it with others.
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To me, forgiveness is taking any crap thrown at me and "giving it back." I don't mean returning evil for evil. Someone cusses me and I cuss back at them.
The "crap" thrown at me is the destructive entropy, or "negative energy" that comes with a slap, an angry glare, a moody silence, a bullet, a lie, etc.
Forgiveness "cleans" the entropy away. The wound remains. The memory continues. But the destruction is no longer maintained. The plug is pulled on the vibrating, buzzing, grinding teeth of the affront, and the erosion of the soul ceases.
So, you forgive anything (and everything) you want to stop destroying you.
When someone personally (or even IM-personally) wrongs you, it is tough to forgive the person. But it is possible to forgive the wrong they did. Not to "excuse" or "justify" it. Just hand the entropy back.
"Okay. You slapped me. It hurt. You shouldn't have done that, and I don't want to face you, at least not right now. But I don't want the slap to keep on stinging, the bruise to get wider and deeper and darker. So I dismiss the evil of the slap and minimize the damage already done. You will not get any more victory from me AFTER-the-fact. You had your moment and abused it ... and ME ... but I take back charge and I control all my moments from this point forward. Have as nice a day as possible while being so mean, but I am not as much a victim as you may have wanted. In fact, I only lost for as long as it took for you to hurt me, and for me to recover. From this point on, by getting rid of the entropy your assault transmitted to me, I win. For a moment (or two) I lost, but for all the moments ahead, I win. So long, loser. Hope ya grow up some day."
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To me, forgiveness is taking any crap thrown at me and "giving it back." I don't mean returning evil for evil. Someone cusses me and I cuss back at them.
The "crap" thrown at me is the destructive entropy, or "negative energy" that comes with a slap, an angry glare, a moody silence, a bullet, a lie, etc.
Forgiveness "cleans" the entropy away. The wound remains. The memory continues. But the destruction is no longer maintained. The plug is pulled on the vibrating, buzzing, grinding teeth of the affront, and the erosion of the soul ceases.
So, you forgive anything (and everything) you want to stop destroying you.
When someone personally (or even IM-personally) wrongs you, it is tough to forgive the person. But it is possible to forgive the wrong they did. Not to "excuse" or "justify" it. Just hand the entropy back.
"Okay. You slapped me. It hurt. You shouldn't have done that, and I don't want to face you, at least not right now. But I don't want the slap to keep on stinging, the bruise to get wider and deeper and darker. So I dismiss the evil of the slap and minimize the damage already done. You will not get any more victory from me AFTER-the-fact. You had your moment and abused it ... and ME ... but I take back charge and I control all my moments from this point forward. Have as nice a day as possible while being so mean, but I am not as much a victim as you may have wanted. In fact, I only lost for as long as it took for you to hurt me, and for me to recover. From this point on, by getting rid of the entropy your assault transmitted to me, I win. For a moment (or two) I lost, but for all the moments ahead, I win. So long, loser. Hope ya grow up some day."
posted by Author | 7:45 PM
1 Comments:
No, Roo, it wasn't you. Thanks for reading, and posting a comment, though!
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